Today I received my decision from the unemployment judge. I don't get unemployment. I could have lied on the application, afterwords I was told by my mother and sister I should have, they would have. But I'm a good guy, an honest guy. I told the truth. And it did nothing but hurt me.

I would wish i could say I have seen the light, or rather darkness, and from this point on I will take every opportunity to lie steal and cheat my way through life. But that is just not the case. I will always do the right thing, as far as I can tell what the right thing is.

I need direction. I know where I would like to be, but I have now idea how to get there. Tomorrow I'm going to go the the Poughkeepsie Journal, local paper. Even if they don't have openings for a photographer, they will I hope be able to tell me what my next steps should be.

I had my un-employment hearing today. Finally.... I think I made my case well. Even though Digilux is technically an active business, it does not offer any significant employment or provide any real income. Thusly I should not be declined benefits.

I don't see how I could be denied, but my ideas often differ from common societal practice. Combine that with the fact the the judge must be a great poker player, because she never gave any indication I could read that she had any predisposition in this case.

Actually I just had a good thought, from last time I was there. I was frustrated by the nearly 4 hours I drove to be there, and complained that waiting much longer for a judgment wouldn't be much help to me. She encouraged me to continue any way. I suppose that could be part of her job, but I would like to think she wouldn't have bothered if I didn't have a good chance.

In time we shall see whatever shall be. I hope not long. One nice thing about today was the weather. It was sunny and plenty warm, the first real day of spring. I enjoyed the long drive with the windows down. That made today a good day.